sister:
Sofie

fellow jedis:
Mare Mare
JarJar
Chewbacca
Andy
Josh Scott
Kacie Tang
and stuff

So yeah. I just got out of calculus. boy, it was fun. sitting there not understanding anything is my favorite. yeeees ineeeeeedy. I felt like quite the dumbass too, and i didn't have the guts to raise my arm and ask questions. I don't even know why. Instead of raising my hand and ending my confusion once and for all, i just took more notes...that i didn't understand. ha. I seriously need to start being more vocal.
the same thing happened this past monday at chemistry tutoring. i had already finished asking all my homework questions, and was just talking to this one Indian girl about how Dr. Meyers didn't explain any of the problems on the homework assignment, and how i didn't understand the titration junk, when i guess she misunderstood me...or maybe she just really wanted to feel smarter than me. ha. because she started explaining how to do this one problem to me. and instead of stopping her and being all like: "no, i get it!" i just sat there for 5 minutes of explanation, all the while pretended to be learning.
I guess it doesn't matter. people have always thought i was an idiot. I mean, even my parents only thought that i'd become a secretary. ha. I seem to exude smartness.
It doesn't really bother me most of the time. I would much rather have people think i'm stupid than smart. it's just that sometimes, the combination of my lack of the ability to speak my mind, with the feeling that i'm dumb can get to me. and really, if i had just spoken my mind, i would feel much better.
Anyways, so last night, i went to Winn-Dixie after chem lab to get some milk, roma tomatoes, and pre-packaged salads, when i got the biggest sugar craving on earth. ha. and lately, i've been trying really hard to lose weight and be healthy. Me, and my sister's friends India and Bekah (why make new friends when you can hang out with your sister's?! man...i am so socially inept. ha) are going to workout together at least 3-4 times a week now. I don't see much difference in my appearance yet. i mean, i still don't look like Natalie Portman. ahaha. but i'm trying pretty hard. Seriously, this is the most consistent work-out routine i've been on since last summer. but even that didn't help much because i only worked out for like 4 weeks and then had to quit to come to UF where my diet last semester consisted of WHOLE birthday cakes from Sam's Club i would buy for myself. haha. but anyway, I was reading the nutrition facts for one of Winn-Dixie's blueberry pies, thinking that a fruit pie would be healthier than, lets say, a whole birthday cake from Sam's Club. ha. but that sucka had like 7384719074874 calories! So instead, i ended up buying these ready-to-bake Nestle Tollhouse sugar cookies (which were 2 for $5) and ended up baking 37 cookies last night...(well 39...if i hadn't eaten the cookie dough. maha.) they turned out reeeeeeally nice too. Sofie actually thought i bought them when she came in (I carefully arranged them in a pyramid. ha)
the Nutrition Facts said the cookies were 100 calories, 35 fat calories each. ha. guess that's not much healthier. and i ate like 54854352752754. ha. how do kids like Natalie Portman do it?!
I guess they eat grapes for dinner. ha.
but...who can live without cookies? That's one sad life if u ask me.

ok. i'm going to eat the cookies i brought for lunch. haha. good thing India, Bekah, and me are doing Yoga tonight.

*~*Claudia*~*
"if his status ain't hood, i ain't checkin' for him. better be street if he lookin' at me!"